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Nowadays I really feel like doing that. RAWR at people. :O

Something really stupid happened today.

HAIS.

Y'know..I really don't like disappointing people if I can?

And obviously, I don't like being embarrassed. (Who does!)

Today during INTCA, for the dumb skit, it was just a total embarrassment la.

I didn't know it had to be a scheme from NAC and at 9am in the morning, who's brain would be functioning?!

If I didn't read through the Housing one and remembered info about it, I bet the whole situation would have been worse.

I also can't stand the way A just brushed it off when she told C about it on the phone.

Like "Hello?!"

We're the ONLY group who didn't manage to fulfill the task properly y'know.

And they weren't even helping la!

Like at least I contributed and added on right.

Then why LF asked, no one could answer.

Like WTF?!

Didn't yáll read anything at all!?

HAIS.

I'm really tired of ending up in groups where the members don't do their parts.

It's really tiring and irritating.

But what can I do?

I'll be stuck like that for 3 damn years.

Poly ain't easy.

It's damn tough.

Might not be as tough as JC.

But it doesn't mean that it's not tough as well.

My course is just crazy.

Now that it's after the hols, it's gonna get even more intense.

I need to start barking up.

Work harder.

'Cause I don't wanna be left behind.

I'm not gonna lag behind.

No. I won't.

I really miss secondary school life.

Even studying the Os was more fun than studying now.

Actually now I can't even study if I wanted to.

Lecturers are also not as friendly as my sec school teachers.

HAIS.

JIAYOUS MANDA!

Now this lady's in Korea. :X

Lucky donkey. :B

Hope she's having fun! And hahah. I'll be going to Korea in November! :B

Miss ya BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABA. D:

♥Amanda

It's all about you, you, you, you~
And never about me, me, me, me~

It's always the same old issue. The one that is mentioned over and over again. The one where you apologise again and again.

Yet, there's no permanent change. It's still always about you.

I know you're pretty and everything. No matter what you say about yourself. (Which obviously isn't true)

Plus someone who hates the way they look won't even take any photos of themselves.

So, yea.

Stop telling me things that you don't mean.

I'd rather you didn't say anything at all.

We all have new lives now. All have moved on somehow. Though in some ways I know the two of you haven't really moved on yet.

You still get reminded of stuff and everything. But then again, that's just what I inferred/think.

Nothing that you've told me.

Always saying that you don't know how to say it, or another time you'll share.

But is it that much of a torture just to tell me stuff?

Well, if it is, then fine. By all means. Just continue not telling me stuff and expecting me to know.

Do you know how ridiculous that sounds?

It's not like I'm some mind-reader or that I'm always so free to always have to be updated through blogs and twitter and stuff.

What happened to verbal communication?

You don't listen when I talk.

You say you do but your actions show otherwise.

Maybe you guys just find me a nag.

Too boring to listen to.

Or since it's not about you, it's not important at all.

And then when I stop, you go on and on and on about you again.

Well, NEWS FLASH for you.

Since you guys think that way, then fine, I won't listen or ask or even bother about your shit too.

If you think that I'm difficult to talk to, then fine, I am.

If you think you've already found better friends, then fine, you have.

If you think that whatever you're talking about is more important than anything else, then fine, it is.

Just don't expect me to be around when you need someone to.

Since you've already got such a great life now.

.Amanda.

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.

Why does this kind of stupid things ALWAYS happen to me?!

Why do I NOT get what I chose in my top 3 choices when my friends do?

Why am I the only one in MY class in that stupid event?!

Why did I get such a stupid task to do?!

WHY WHY WHY!

Why is it that I'm the one who ALWAYS gets this kind of STUPID SHIT!

WHY!

Don't think that I'm being childish and immature.

You might tell me:

"Aiya, don't worry la! Who knows? It might be fun!"

OR

"Just deal with it la."

And etc.

LIKE 'EFF OFF MAN!

You DON'T know what it feels like to be underappreciated.

To be second choice.

To be the other person.

To be the back-up.

To be the one that is USED.

EVERYTHING ADDS UP WITH PREVIOUS EXPERIENCE!

SO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.

DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DO.

I wouldn't have minded getting that event IF I didn't get scheduled such a shit job.

But guess what?

I did get a SHIT job.

So YEA.

THAT just EMPHASISES on the FACT that FIRSTLY, I DIDN'T EVEN WANT TO GO FOR THAT STUPID EVENT.

SECONDLY, I GOT A SHIT JOB!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

AND THAT WOMAN STILL SAID WHAT "OH yáll can switch your assigned jobs around if yáll want to for the second day."

NOW WHO THE HELL WOULD WANT TO SWAP WITH ME!

HUH!

THIS WHOLE THING JUST MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL.

WHY THE F WOULD I WANT TO PUT IN EFFORT WHEN YOU GIVE ME SUCH A SHIT JOB!?

THAT WOMAN DIDN'T EVEN MENTIONED ABOUT THAT SHIT JOB LA.

AND OF ALL PEOPLE, HOW COME I GOT IT!?

HUH?! I ASK YOU THAT!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.