LOL.

Was sorting out my manymany folders of stuff..

Labelling them and what not.

HAIS.

I think i nearly died.

AND I'M STILL NOT FINISHED!

HAIS.

kayyes.

I've gotta go.

CYA!

Love & as always,

Amanda.

p.s. my desktop does look a lot less cramp! :O

I'm...

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored

boredboredboredboredbored!!!

BOREDOM SUCKS MAN.

I DON'T WANNA STUDY NOW.

TIRED.

BUT DON'T WANNA SLEEP.

HAIS.

I'M BORED!

SOMEBODY, HELP?

I don't feel like blogging too.

HAIS.

Maybe a short post?

I can't post photos till after Showcase.

Must give y'all a SURPRISE! :D

Reached school at around 9plus..

Yao was already there.

Collected Frank's photos and Comm Photos from Ms Chen..

Then we started to stick the photos on Roamers' Board.

Looked really NICE luh!

U will see it on SATURDAY!

:D

Finished up with our 3rd Floor Noticeboard le..

Plus went to help out with downstairs noticeboard..

All look so NICE!

THANK YOU PEOPLE!

:D

Took the Choir for short 30mins rehearsal..

Gave them a lot of extra time to finish on preparations for Showcase.

Cause tomorrow's a Public Holiday!

Not bad luh..

We sound good!

:D

Haven't really took full choir in a longlong time..

Felt abit out-of-touch.

:O

OH AND

2/5'08 CLASS OUTING IS ON...

20th DEC!

12NN @ AMK MRT STATION!

KAYYES.

I've gotta go.

BORED.

HAIS.

Love & as always,

MANDA.

P.S. He still seems the best..

Daphne Khoo

Haven't heard about her or from her in really long time eh?

Feel like getting her album, Desperate.

Cause some of the lyrics really mean a lot to me.

Hmm.

For example, Paper.

The song's embed on the right.

So just click the Play button to hear it yea?

:D

I'm currently GAGA over the song.

LOL.

Kayyes.

Went to study today.

Wasn't very fruitful.

HAIS.

NEED TO JIAYOU!

Worried about A MATHS re-exam.

Kayyes.

I should go.

Need to go sch tmr to help with Roamers' board.

Li Qi, Tsae Hwa they all did some stuff le..

THANK YOU!

I know it was damn last minute.

ZZZ.

Kayyes.

Byebye.

Nights.

Love & as always,

Amanda.

P.S. HAIS. U're still the best one out of them all.

So what's LOVE?

What does it mean to you?

Red roses? Wine? Rings? Presents?

Well..

Saw this weird analogy about love as Samuel Lee's pm..

"Being in love is like pissing in your pants; everyone can see it, but only you can feel its warmth."

I know..It sounds gross..

But doesn't it make sense?

LOL.

Anyone else has anymore weird, quirky analogies to share?

Do tell yea.

:D

Anyways..

Just a brief update about my life yesterday and maybe today..

Went to Malaysia yesterday..

Reached JB like at 10plus?

Took a bus down to Jusco Tebrau City.

Shopped there for like the whole day till 6plus..

Bought new school shoes!

DAMN PRETTY.

HOHO.

Shan't post pics..

Cause anyways I didn't take any..

And also a casual sandals..

LIKE FINALLY?

:D

Then took a bus back to City Square and bought tape for ZY and liner.

I'm so excited about OBS!

YAY!

Yet another chance to train.

HOHO.

I ain't gonna fit into the stupid stereotype about girls being weak.

AND I LIKE DOING ODD JOBS.

Like being random and carrying stuff?

Manual labour?

It's FUN.

Maybe I'm just weird.

Well..whatever.

:D

Went to school at 9am today to help out with decor.

But wasn't really needed cause there were a lot of people there who were officially in the the team.

Pei-ed Crystal walkwalk around school for inspiration..

Saw Ms Chung at the carpark..

LOL.

Athletics people were playing game at the foyer.

Band camp started today.

Passed the tapes to Reiko to help me pass to ZY.

:D

Had lunch and rehearsal started at 1pm.

Went down to foyer at about 1.50pm..

Helped to carry tables and benches for set-up.

Rehearsed our item for AMKsian Showcase till about 3pm?

Had a longlong break all the way till 4.15pm.

Played Taboo with Min Hui, Tsae Hwa, Kai Yin, Nabilah, Debbie, Zhi Hui & Michelle Kang.

:D

funfun!

:D

Went to foyer at around 4.15pm?

Watched Dance juniors + guys' performance while waiting for bus to arrive.

St Joseph Institution is bigbig man.

Waited at their canteen before moving off to the SJI Chapel.

Prettypretty place.

The effect of the light filtering was way cool.

:O

Watched the performance of SJI Choir, Catholic Junior College Choir, Dunman Secondary School Choir & Raffles Chorale.

All were led by Toh Ban Sheng.

The opening of the concert was interesting.

LOL.

Need to do a reflection..

Think I'll do it at study group tomorrow.

:D

Oh found another analogy.

"Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

Kayyes.

I've gotta go man.

IT'S DAMN LATE LE.

Plus my eyes hurt.

><

Love & as always,

MANDA.

P.S. found this silly cute photo.

Samuel Lee sure got a lot of things to say de.

:O

It's SKINNY SQUIRREL'S TURN! :D

Hmm.

Yesterday started out fine..

But ended kinda horribly?

HAIS.

Had rehearsal from 10-1pm.

Then the whole choir went to Pizza Hut for lunch.

Met Cheryl Ng there.

So coincidental!

She's gonna have a concert next Wednesday @ VCH!

Tix at $10!

Anyone wanna go?

DQ is such a PIG.

OMG la.

He kep ordering and ordering..

TSKTSK.

Well..after lunch..some of us went back to school, some went home, some went to Popular to buy materials for AMKsian Showcase (THANK YOU!).

DQ & Rayner went back to Hub cause DQ wanted to print photos..

Yao & I continued with the Choir Noticeboard.

IT IS DAMN PRETTY!

LOL.

But the crepe paper keeps exploding..

:O

You'll understand when you see it.

:D

Li Qi & Kai Yin came back to school after going to Popular to finish up on their designs for our other Choir Noticeboard downstairs.

THANK YOU!

:D

Stayed back for Awards Nite.

Yao & Li Qi went to report at the library cause they were taking prizes.

Congratulations! :D

Chatted with the dancers who were having dinner for a short while..

Then cause they needed blusher so went to get the key from yao to lend them..

Helped out a little with the dancers make-up.

Felt so out-of-place during the preparations for the Awards Nite.

Didn't belong there.

Wasn't officially helping out in any way at all..

Wasn't performing..

All in all..

It was just plain weird.

In the end..

Just went to the gallery..

Met Jia Hui there.

New friend!

Heh.

Just two of us who were there to support our friends.

Chatted quite a bit with her.

Was fun and entertaining.

Heh.

So much better than being alone.

:D

 CAROL GOT SOME FOOD FOR US!

THANKS CAROL!

:D

The decor for the Awards Nite was really nice & cool!

:D

Dance performance in between prize presentation.

Spammed pics.

I think at least a hundred?

No idea.

Abit siao bah.

:O

Will try to upload on FB.

After the ceremony ended at around 9plus..

Went downstairs with ZY (who came up after the band's really nice performance) & Jia Hui..

Nerdy GEEK! & me. :D

But went up soon after cause parents wanted to take photos..

...

Helped out with the clearing up.

Felt very extra and out-of-place.

Teachers didn't know me.

Was just some crazy random student who was helping out for no good reason.

I am never my own person.

Yea.

I never did win any official prizes fo Awards Nite.

So what.

Mood started to go wayway low as the night progressed on.

Till the point when I totally didn't want to talk to anyone at all.

Just wanted to be alone.

Yesterday was the day when I broke my crying drought.

Hais.

Stupid eh?

Felt like no one really did understand my role at all.

I tried to help...

Partly cause I like doing all those stuff..

Don't think that all these are encouraging and motivating.

I can safely tell you..

It's all bull.

At least to me.

I don't get motivated.

I get more and more demoralized.

To the point where I just want to give up.

Why is it that when one part of my life starts looking up..the other goes down the drain?

It's not that I never tried.

I just didn't excel at all.

Perhaps my IQ's just ain't making the cut that an Express student should have.

Perhaps this is my destiny.

Trying to have faith in yourself is just plain hard.

When everywhere you turn, there's people trying to pull you down.

So that they themselves do damn well, but the one who suffers is you.

I wanna walk on the bridge that takes me farfaraway where no one can find me. It's not like anyone cares anyway.

I'm the one whose existance doesn't even matter.

LEAVE ME ALONE.

Let me wallow in my self-pity.

For no one will truly understand how I feel.

Especially you.

And to another you.

Stop wasting your time.

She's not worth it.

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BIRTHDAY GIRL TODAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SHUI JING!

:D

Kay.

Can't rant properly on a blog that is opened to public right?

So just gonna try and stop thinking so much.

Stupid habit of mine.

Love & as always,

Amanda.

Me like FAT squirrel! :D

I support TOTAL RANDOM-NESS!

Do you?

:D

I'm doing my ENGLISH CORRECTIONS!

Like had to re-do some parts of it cause I CAN'T FIND MY THUMBDRIVE.

Super sadded.

D:

Praveen tells me that Chemistry is a total killer.

NOT GOOD.

OMGOMGOMG.

All I wanna be is a goodgood girl who does her homework and studies so that Santa will give me lots and lots of presents..

But life ain't helping me.

D:

LOL.

ALICE BABA GET WELL SOON DARLING!

AND STOP GOING CRAZY OVER YOUR SOTONGS!

:D

Amanda goh is currently quite frustrated.

Irritated too.

HAIS.

Somebody, help?

She just wants someone to talk to.

And she doesn't want to be confused by silly stuff all over again.

She just wants to be happy.

Just like everyone else.

Is that so hard?

HAIS.

Complications.

Anws.

Gonna chiong my ENGLISH.

Byebye.

:D

Love & as always,

Amanda.

I think this somewhat describes my personality..

You have a need for other people to like and admire you, and yet you tend to be critical of yourself.

While you have some personality weaknesses you are generally able to compensate for them.

You have considerable unused capacity that you have not turned to your advantage.

Disciplined and self-controlled on the outside, you tend to be worrisome and insecure on the inside.

At times you have serious doubts as to whether you have made the right decision or done the right thing.

You prefer a certain amount of change and variety and become dissatisfied when hemmed in by restrictions and limitations.

You also pride yourself as an independent thinker; and do not accept others' statements without satisfactory proof.

But you have found it unwise to be too frank in revealing yourself to others. At times you are extroverted, affable, and sociable, while at other times you are introverted, wary, and reserved.

Some of your aspirations tend to be rather unrealistic..

Hmm..

You know what?

I'm someone who gets reallyreallyreall happy just by seeing and hanging with my mates.

Weird eh?

People need presents and stuff..

But..

I just need my friends.

:D

So don't go away yeah?

:D

Oh &BY THE WAY.

STOP CALLING ME BLURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

T . T

I'm not BLURRR.

At least..

Not THAT blur.

There used to be a time when people kept calling me emo.

Now..

It's BLUR.

OMG.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

okok..

The BLUR girl shall get off the comp.

But wait.

Me wanna post photos.

HEH.

These are the people who went ALL THE WAY BACK TO SCHOOL to help clear up.

THANK YOU DARLINGS! :D

And these are the presents I received that day from my DEARDEAR friends :D

THANK YOU! :D

Kay.

GTG.

BYEBYE.

LOVE & AS ALWAYS,

amanda.

For those of you who didn't know..

13 November 2009 was World Kindness Day.

Perhaps that's why so many dear people turned up to support the AMKSS Choir on that day.

For me, it was the first time when so many friends of mine actually came to support.

Plus..

The tickets this time round was more expensive.

So, I just wanna say:

THANK YOU!

You have no idea how much your support meant.

Plus..

The feeling when you meet ur pals after you've just performed is totally amazing.

Thank you for giving me the chance to experience it.

:D

This concert..the success of it..somehow..made everything worth it.

Thank you to Ms Chen & Miss Ho for the tokens of appreciation!

:D

Hope you guys like the cactus :D

Somehow I miss having rehearsals to go to already.

The next one is on FRIDAY!

Longlong time away.

In some ways or another..

AMKSS has definitely become the second home for me..

I expect many AMKsians feel the same way too!

:D

To think that nearly 3 years has gone passed ever since the day I stepped into the school as an AMKsian.

How time really flies.

People change.

Life changes.

The only thing we can do is to: change with it.

Sometimes that ain't easy.

And it may not be what we want to do.

Yet, we don't have a choice.

So what are we living for?

If you're gonna answer Love then I'll say you're too naive.

:O

Oh and today's VIP! :D

Sherilynnnnnnnnn Chionh Yun Ting! :D (lady in white)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D

I'm so nice right?

Went all the way to school to pass you your pressie!

:D

This is what crazy silly adorable Alice did to her MSN pm.

ALICE :B      IHEARTAYZX&AGTY&FCFY&AR&GYT&BKAX&JHHX&RFHY&AGTH&LLHE&LDPL&GBJE&VHMC&THC&ZL&JQXM

(ariel&manda&florence&raven&yanting&bernice&jasmine&honyu&amelia&louisa leow&louisalim&xinyi&jiaen&vince&huichien&zerline&jo)

And.

The best thing is..

She's not done.

But..

She has given up.

LOL.

So cute right?

The retarded things people do when they're bored.

:O

Oh.

I might be going Malaysia again!

Hehs.

Hmm..

Love & as always,

Amanda.

Tomorrow's Black Friday.

And it's also the AMKSS Choir concert night.

Are you excited?

Well..

I am.

:D

Hope to see you all there!

:D

Hey you..

Cheer up yea?

(:

JIAYOUS CHOIR! :D

love&as always,

Amanda.

this baby here reminds me of too many (silly) things.

Hellos.

:D

Shall post a few pics from 7NOV's trip to ECP.

At the Bazaar.

SG Flyer is damn pretty! :D

Photos are total memory-refreshers.

Sometimes.

It ain't that a good thing.

They remind me of how manymany things have changed.

They also remind me of how manymany people have changed.

Hmm.

Anyways.

Don't wanna blog le.

=X

Nights.

Love & as always,

Amanda.

Hellos.

Gonna die uploading the photos for the BBQ at CRS' house on 30th OCT..

But.

I'll try.

><

There were 171 photos taken la..

Just during that short duration when my camera came out..

:O

focus on the bangle!

BEI WAH!

Drew, ZY & Kwanfa.

Guess who?

:D

:D:D:D

:D:D:D

Sista & ZP

Bangs! :D

Andy act cool (again!) :D

"Mr Chew at your service." XP

0 . o

JJ strikes (again!)

:D

LOL.

Guess who?

Look carefully...

:D

Oopsie!

:D

BEI WAH!

(was too slow..they were passing a cup..if not Bei Wah would look like she's in the cup.. XP )

Same colour! (ZY& ME)

:D

Ernest in action... (look at Wei Lih... XP )

JJ ar, JJ ar.. always so hungry..

TSK.

:D

The Chocolate Sauce Potato Chips saga...

People who attended! [w/o carol cause she went home :( ]

Manda ♥ Bei WAH! :D

Compare the two photos..

:D

"Finish the Fruit Punch" Saga

The forever act-cool Andy Chew. XP

ZP decides to strike! (with skewers. :O )

"Let's bully Andy" Saga!

:D

Revenge is sweet:D

Yeap!

That's it.

I won't be posting the last 4 photos.

Those who were there will know why.

:D

Hope you enjoyed the photos.

I had to upload them one by one so do appreciate them yea?

:D

Oh and by the way..

Did you notice that whenever ZP poses for a photo..

Three more guys will join in in the next few photos?

=X

Therefore, I can conclude that: Those 4 guys love the camera man! :D

SPECIAL THANKS to:

Clarissa - for booking the pit and getting her parents to help. THANK YOU! :D

Everyone else especially the clean-up crew!

:D

& BEI WAH - for her gifts :D

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Last day of work today.

Gonna miss Earshot so much!

Had so much fun y'know.

Met some really fun people too!

And also learnt how to be a better cashier ( after making some mistakes) and also on how to use a credit card machine.

Hoho.

I'm happy.

:D

Bought a electric blue top too.

Damn chio luh.

Me like.

:D

Heh.

Kay.

It's 2nd NOV already and I'm still awake.

Conquer O in a few hours time!

Redid the schedule thing le.

:D

Lalala~

Love & as always,

Amanda.

I remember myself telling someone this.

To cheer that person on.

To help that person move on.

Sadly, that person and I are not really friends now.

Say what?

Things change.

People change.

It just depends on whether you can understand that Change happens all the time.

Kinda reminds me of Mr Ng's Change, from NOMAD 2008

I wonder when we started to change..

And what was change?

Who lived here before?

And what was his name?

And what would that mean...to me..

When nothing is ever the same.

When places and people have changed.

When change is the only thing that doesn't change.

The only thing...

The only thing..

Is to change.

Nice meaningful words eh?

YEAP.

That's Mr Ng Tian Hui's composition.

At least it's one of the movement of the whole composition.

:D

Not many people get Change.

That is..

The whole process of Changing.

Most people use the easy way out: Just think from MY point of view.

Which is so wrong.

That's because you don't know what happened in between those people.

Therefore, you have no right to conclude anything or spread rumors.

Have a little empathy yea?

:D

What do you do when things change?

What do you say to the parties involved?

What do you do when you wish things didn't change?

I wish I knew those answers.

Perhaps life would be slightly easier then.

*sigh*

Missed opportunities too affect things.

They plague you with regret.

And absolutely no way of changing anything.

Oh wells.

Resignation.

Anyways.

Went to buy the BBQ stuff today.

Thanks for all the help guys! (Mainly: Carol, ZP, Jaselyn, Prav & Andy)

:D:D:D

Then went for sectionals to help MichelleT. out.

WOON TSAE HWA!

JIAYOUS! :D

BE MORE CONFIDENT YEAH? :D

IRIS CHAN!

JIAYOUS!

YOU CAN DE!

:D:D:D

Oh and the reason for today's title is because of a incident.

P: Did you lose weight?

A: Er...not really?

P: Oh, your face looks thinner (inferred from hand gestures and some words)

A: Oh..

Talk about weird conversation.

Wonder how I even ended up there.

><

Hmm..

Lao pa is damn cute.

Ask me whether wanna go Night Safari, the Halloween de.

Then I said it's very expensive.

He was like, " How much?"

I said, " Like $20+ ?"

Then he said, " So cheap ar?"

Talk about a crazy Lao pa.

TSK.

LOL.

Oh and Sports Day was GREAT.

Mostly because I managed to hang with my TWOFIVE'08 again!

happy~

It was the BEST day ever.

:D:D:D

We, the 22 of us, even went to eat lunch together at drive thru.

Totally unplanned and on the spot.

That's what I love 'bout TWOFIVE'08.

Our lao da is Boon.

Lol.

Bak Kut Teh.

=X

Miss the good ole days man.

I reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally miss you guys.

The silliest stuff and all..

Though at times might seem SICK but it's a part of TWOFIVE'08.

♥LOVE us.

:D

People not seen/blocked: Wei Lin (photographer), Gary, Ben & Shawn.

The Twenty-Two of us.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

:D

Kay.

I ♥ TWOFIVE'08!

can i make it any more obvious?

lol.

Well, Threefour'09 ain't half-bad either.

:D

But we really must JIAYOU together.

:D

Let's go THREEFOUR'09!

:D

Kay, time for me to go.

See ya people!

Love & as always,

Amanda.

Didn't go to school today..

Still haven't fully recovered yet and was afraid that it would get worse..

Seeing as I still continued working on Saturday when I caught the silly flu bug.

So kinda made it worse..

><

Slowly, but gradually..I'm getting better..

Had to take some icky tablets!!

The old version of it was sweet but the new version is DISGUSTING!

You can smell the herbs and stuff la.

Yuck.

[Sorry, not a big fan of that kinda smell :O]

ANYWAY, hope it's working its magic (however much digusting it is) and I should be back in school tomorrow. :D

AND.

I also have choir rehearsal tomorrow.

Need to revise the SYF pieces.

And the sadsadsad thing is that I don't have the pieces so can't practise beforehand.

Practised the other songs le.

Hope that I can help luh.

I'm so boredboredbored!

Went to watch vid.

=X

Time just flew past like that.

Gonna need to do my LJ soon!

Having Music lesson this wednesday.

So yeah.

I shall just end off this post.

Everytime I wanna blog...

I tend to get distracted.

So yeah.

Oopsie.

:D

Love & as always,

Manda.

Hellos.

Back from working for a couple of days le.

:D

Had fun and did meet many new people (not you, Samuel Lee XP) and also..

Had to handle quirky incidences.

:O

Didn't really learn much technical stuff..

Did mostly manual work luh.

BUT.

Was still fun.

HEH.

In case you're wondering..

How much do i earn?

Well.

Not a cent.

:D

Cause it's voluntary work..

So yeap.

:D

Currently falling sick.

Yesterday was feeling badbadbad.

Pounding headache and all.

Today felt better but haven't fully recovered yet.

Main reasons why I hate falling ill eh.

><

ANYWAY.

It's back to school tomorrow..

Gonna have post-exams activities.

:D

For tomorrow my class is having the Creative Dance thing.

Then on Tuesday, we're having BOWLING.

:D:D:D

Going back for SWF next week..

:D

Oh btw.

Here's how to get to The Arts House (if you're going for the Choir concert on 13NOV)

LOCATION
No 1 Old Parliament Lane Level 2 Annex Building Singapore 179429.

By Car:

Enter via 1 Old Parliament Lane. Parking spaces available at the current Parliament House, The Adelphi and the road side along Empress Place

By Bus:

North Bridge Road (Opposite Funan Centre or Outside MITA Building): 32, 51, 61, 63, 80, 103, 124, 145, 166, 174, 195, 197, 603, 851, 961
Collyer Quay (At, or Opposite Clifford Pier; Fullerton Square; Opposite Singapore Cricket Club or outside Victoria Concert Hall): 10, 70, 75, 100, 107,130, 131, 162, 167, 196, 605, 607, 608

By MRT:

From Raffles Place Station, take exit H and walk across Cavenagh Bridge.

From City Hall Station, take exit B (in front of capitol building), turn left, walk towards Funan Centre and turn left again upon reaching the present Parliament house.

From Clark Quay Station, take exit E, cross the road in front, then turn left, upon reaching the Singapore River, turn right and walk towards the Victoria Memorial Clock Tower.

Hope you won't get lost :D

It's pretty easy so don't worry yea?

:D

Kay.

Gotta go.

Love & as always,

Amanda.

I miss us. (plus th)

i love the bad boy with a great smile kinda look. Aren't they just so cute? =X

Hellos.

I'm back yet again.

Wanted to check my email for more updates on LAA and blog too luh.

Today's main theme: I hope you're happy now.

This is just a statement to some acquaintance.

Hope that person is happy now.

Wrote that person such a nice letter.

So I hope that person is happy now.

:D

Hope that that person is done talking about stuff behind the other person's back.

Hope that person finally has some initiative.

Hope that person knows that I'm sick and tired of having to listen to the same old same old crap when that person doesn't do/attempt to do anything about it at all.

Hope that person is able to see that they are always hanging around.

Hope that person understands that I don't tolerate hypocrites; bad-mouthers; back-stabbers regardless of their relationship to me.

AND.

To another that person.

Hope that another that person finally sees that he/she is very capable of being exactly what they complain about.

Hope that another that person saw that he/she was just as capable as to talk bad about someone and on the VERY NEXT DAY, hang out with them like they didn't bad mouth them. (Brilliant! *applause*)

Hope that another that person stops saying things for the sake of it.

Hope that another person stops trying to placate themselves by pretending to text someone whilst still angry. (not worth it. that someone doesn't care.)

Hope that another person will have some initiative soon.

For those two that person(s) should know that another someone and the someone no longer care.

They have officially given up UNTIL those two that person(s) finally show some initiative.

No one takes kindly to being used.

No one enjoys being used.

For those who enjoys bad-mouthing others and not feel guilty about it, congratulations! You do not have a conscience! :D

DISCLAIMER: Don't apologise for something that you're going to repeat again. It's not worth it. And, do you think anyone would care to hear it? NOPE.

Kay done with my lovely message.

:D

Now I'm gonna talk about what happened today.

Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR PANG! :D

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIA YUN! :D

kay.

Secondly,

A dumb thing I did today.

I totally forgot to reset my counters.

Now they are all screwed up!

:S

BUT.

Luckily, only sent 16 texts before I realized my silly mistake.

AND.

Today is afterall, the SIXTEEN!

So yay!

:D

Went for a Conducting workshop with Michelle T, Rayner, Eleanor, Hwee Tong, Samuel, Marcus, Poh Rong & Li Qi @ Yuying Sec.

Was rather interesting.

The speaker was like really trying to engage the audience.

She told us about some of the tidbits of her life and how she got to where she is today.

Was really interesting and inspirational.

:D

THANKS ELEANOR & PARENTS! :D

Had fun learning to conduct and stuff.

Wonder if I'll ever feel the "goosebumps".

Hmm.

Anyways.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI!

(in advance) :D

Kay.

I've gotta go.

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I cannot wait to volunteer there again!!!

NATHANIEL!

:D

XUANXUAN!

:D

Kay.

Gotta go.

Love & as always,

Amanda.

P.s. if even after the letter..you still don't do anything. acquaintances. that's what we are. or will be.

:D

School hasn't even restarted yet and I'm already gonna be reallyreally busy.

On the list of up-coming events:

- AMKSS Choir concert @ The Arts House on 13NOV, 7.30pm (tickets at $12! Do come and support! :D)

+ Because it's an event..we have to like practise for it right? So I'm gonna have choir rehearsals till 6.30pm starting TOMORROW!

- Volunteering @ LAA every Saturday! (Can't wait! Love that place and the people are SO nice. :D)

- Work attachment @ the Singapore Writers Festival on 24th, 25th, 31st OCT and on 1st NOV. (Might have to go for extra days though =X)

Therefore, my holidays are packed!

YAY!

I'm happy with that.

Gonna get a chance to experience so many new, cool things PLUS meet new people.

YES!

:D

Hmm.

Gonna update about dinner with my mum & sis yesterday (14OCT).

Went to Changing Appetite @ Marina Square.

Expensive, not bad but not really value for money.

So, if you're starving.

I think Changing Appetite ain't for ya.

=X

Pictures of the food!

Taken using my pathetic 2 megapixels handphone camera :O

My dinner! Cajun Chicken.

Wasn't half bad.

The most hilarious thing was avoiding the smoke coming from it cause it was some kinda hotplate or something..

><

My sis's Cheese on Chicken.

Lol.

Sounds funny eh?

But the really nice part of it was the mango sauce!

:D:D:D

A slice of Tiramisu cake!

Sad to say..

It wasn't really nice.

Full of cream and barely any cake.

=X

Waffles with Strawberry & Peppermint Ice-Cream.

:D

Delish!

Mum shared the food with us luh.

:D

And today!

Went out with bro & sis to catch Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs.

:D

Was supposed to watch it at Hub's Cathay but there wasn't the 2D one (as stated in the newspaper!)

Saw Prav they all standing at the steps of Hub.

ZP's shirt is so striking la!

You could have spotted him from a mile away.

=X

Anyway, we trained to J8 instead.

Reached there about 2.10pm..

Was just in time to catch the movie at 2.45pm.

So we just wandered around J8 till the cinema opened.

A funny thing I noticed about the audience is that when they slowly streamed in..

This one sentence would be said, "Wahh, so small ar?"

( We were in Cinema 5)

Hmm.

Was a rather good movie.

Better than 500 days of Summer.

In my opinion luh..

=X

Kay.

Gonna end this post now.

:D

Dealing with "that" tomorrow.

Shall see what happens.

Frankly, I don't really care anymore.

No more feelings for this whole hooha.

Too bad.

Too sad.

Your loss.

Not mine.

Whatever.

Oh and by the way!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (in advance) to:

MR PANG!

JIA YUN!

:D:D:D

-Amanda

If you realized that all you ever do is complain/hate/whine about someone...

You're just taking the easy way out.

DEAL. WITH. IT.

STOP RUNNING AWAY.

IT AIN'T GONNA SOLVE ITSELF.

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Read some stuff that just made me feel even more confused.

And mad.

For once, I am seriously mad at this someone.

Like what the hell is happening.

Why do people keep saying one thing and mean another?

Why can't they just say what they feel??

What's wrong with them?

Hello?

How hard can it be to speak the truth?

Isn't telling lies harder?

All lies do is get piled up.

And then it all comes crashing down on you.

What is the point in that?

I am getting super irritated by this.

I don't even care if we aren't even friends anymore.

Let us all be acquaintances.

See if I freaking care.

So damn tired.

Always the one who tries.

Always the one people look for when they need you, only to toss you away once they're done emptying their stuff.

GOD.DAMN.IT.

The next time someone wants to use me, they can go and use themselves.

Please. I freaking tired of being the one who's used.

Need someone to talk to?

Don't look for me.

I am no longer interested in your "interesting" little stuffs for you forget me as soon as you're done telling me them.

Too bad.

Too sad.

See if I care.

For once.

I wanna put myself before others.

Before my "friends".

Before their needs.

I want to focus on ME .

Tired of having to deal with stupid problems.

I almost miss exams.

Now that they are over.

It's time to deal with my problems.

Like DAMN IT.

Not like i asked for it.

STOP TREATING ME LIKE A GODDAMN DUSTBIN.

IF YOU NEED A DAMN DUSTBIN, GO TO IKEA.

I..don't know what's up with me.

Feeling so insecured.

Kinda pathetic huh.

Thought that things would be alright le..

But it seems I was wrong..

They are worst.

First off..

That CIP thing the choir had recently.

For goodness sake.

If you think I was being a pain in the neck by wanting us to do a impromptuperformance for the old folks from AWWA Home..

Let me enlighten you.

At that time, I went to persuade them to join in the games.

But.

They said that they were tired and wanted people to sing for them.

Thus.

Seeing as we are CHOIR MEMBERS and we are DOING OUR CIP,

I went to gather people.

I asked you guys to do a short performance which didn't matter if we went out of tune or what not.

Because it's IMPROMPTU!

Do you think the old folks would care if we went out of tune or even notice if we sang wrongly?

HELLO?!

All they wanted was some entertainment while they sit out the games.

Miss Chan & Mrs Chia didn't know what to do to entertain either.

We were supposed to do our CIP.

In case you are oblivious to what CIP stands for, let me enlighten you.

Community

Involvement

Programme

If you are currently blaming me for not explaining when asking you guys to participate,

It was because there was no time to waste explaining.

The old folks were waiting to us and do you think it's nice to leave your audience waiting?

We were supposed to do our CIP, plus, we are choristors.

I didn't think that it would kill you to just sing for them.

As a performer, and having perfomed countless of times, you shouldn't have stage fright.

What's more, NOBODY except the old folks were watching.

What face are you going to lose?

Are you performing a solo?

Aren't your fellow members alongside with you?

To think that ONLY: Lu Yao, Michelle Teng, Michelle Kang, Jeremy Lee, Ann Pei, Crystal, Eleanor and I sang for the old folks. (if i forgot anyone, I'm sorry)

Out of the manymany people.

I didn't force you to sing, did I?

This whole incident just made me really disappointed. 

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Secondly..

There are these people we call "Friends"..

They are the ones who you are supposed to:

- trust

- care for

- love

- fool around with

- joke with

- laugh with

- count on

- make manymanymnay wonderful memories with

Yet at times..

I keep asking myself ..

Who are my Friends?

Who are my True Friends?

Who can I trust?

Who can I believe in?

Who is acting?

Who is pretending?

Who is lying?

Who is spouting nonsense behind my back?

Who is betraying me?

Who is spreading rumors about me?

So many questions.

Yet..

I can't seem to find the answer.

Stuck in the middle.

Outcast?

Has it reached that level?

So many people seem to enjoy treating me as a replacement.

When things go wrong with someone else..

They come to me.

When things are resolved..

It becomes "Amanda who?"

Thanks alot.

I DO NOT FOR GOODNESS SAKE NEED "FRIENDS" LIKE THAT.

Just go away okay?

Leave me alone.

I don't need that.

Why can't you see that?

I'm just like you.

Just like everyone else.

A normal human being.

With feelings.

You won't like it if I treated you as a replacement right?

So, why do that to me?

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 Thank goodness that I have a really pretty "sister".

Crapping with "her" really cheers me up.

Cuz I totally owned "her".

HEHE.

"She"'s really pretty y'know..

And I discovered the perfect acronym which emphasizes on how pretty "she" is.

HEHE.

:D:D:D

okok..

I let "her" win half.

"Sister" is handsomely pretty kay?

LOL.

"She" created de..

HOHO.

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I wanna go to some place far.

Some place where I can forget all my problems, my unhappiness and my insecurity.

Alone.

:D

Shooshooshoo.

Fly away will you?

Fly farfar away..

Now all that matters..

Is photography.

The others are just to get by.

Lost the passion.

Nothing left.

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Kayyes.

Shall end off here.

 P.s. Thanks carol. :D

Love & as always,

Amanda.

Happy Birthday Aly! (yellow-shirt girl) :D

You're finally FIFTEEN!

:D:D

Stay happy yeah?

&p.s. STOP GROWING TALLER! XP

love & as always,

Amanda

Hello my dear readers. (if there are even any.. :O)

A little update on some old news...

Did my CIP at the Little Arts Academy with my fellow OMUS pals the other day.

(quite a while back ><)

INTRODUCING: LITTLE ARTS ACADEMY (LAA)

The whole campus itself is so:

pretty.

cute.

attractive.

happy.

joyful.

fun.

and many other marvellous words.

All in all.

The Little Arts Academy is a wonderful place to be.

On that day, I learnt how to work a photocopier.

Yes.

I had no idea how to work a photocopier.

And yes!

I learnt how to.

:D

Of course..

There were a few kinks..

But the LAA people were really nice.

:D:D:D

Got to know little bits and pieces of interesting people to look out for..

For example,

- Nathaniel.

He was supposed to be one of the notorious five..

But when I met him..

I liked him.

He was a really interesting boy.

Picture a 9 year-old boy with round specs and with hair that's kinda long-ish (fringe) which flops down.

He looks so darn INNOCENT!

I was thinking, "Notorious five? Are you serious?"

LOL.

Well..

As the saying goes, "Don't judge a book by its cover."

He was on his way for Hip-hop classes.

But by that time..

Our CIP had ended.

But if we wanted..

We could stay on.

However, I had another appointment..

So..wasn't able to pop into their various classes.

LAA has a lot of really cool stuff man.

This is definitely not some kinda last-minute hashed together kinda franchise.

It was well-planned and well-thought-out.

All for..

Majorly the underprivileged kids.

How cool is that?

:D

(I'm sorry if i sound abit too enthusiastic..I'm just a strong supporter of LAA even though I've only been there once. Big impression.)

kayyes.

Shall do a quick update about today.

Went to Rayner's house to study with tSae Hwa and Wei Lih after school.

Those bunch of slackers.

=X

Though!

Gradually..

After me, Rayner started to study, then tSae Hwa and last but not least, Gan Wei Lih/

:D

BADBADBAD NEWS!

tSae Hwa is becoming addicted to MOUSEHUNT!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

All because of GAN WEI LIH!

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

this is not good not good not good.

D:

They were like, " OH! need check the trap le!"

. . .

Only Rayner and I (the NORMAL people) continued studying.

Imagine these two sillies leaving their seats every 3minutes or so just to...

CHECK A VIRTUAL MOUSE TRAP!

Oh my goodness right?!

=X

Kay.

I'm done exclaiming.

:D

Oh btw.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE SK (KORR)! [16SEP'09]

I'm such a nice mei.

HEH.

Kaykaykay.

I've gotta fly.

Bye people!

:D

Love & as always,

Amanda.

Shall update about yesterday.

:D

Went to Ern's house for lunch.

Carol, Sok Ying and Poh Rong went too. :D

Carol's cutting skills. :O

ErnestDI totally looks like a mama bear la.

XP

At around 1plus, Ernest sent Carol and I to Jong's house for Maths Project.

Here are some pics taken there.

kayes.

we had a lot of fun creating the vid and editing luh.

:D

Wait and see huh!

:D

kay.

shall upload a few pics from Eatzi.

Pictures from 31st AUG.

miss teo and mr toh.

mr chow, mr choy, mr yap & miss low

THREEFOUR'09

(look at wei lih's face man! lols. XD )

THREEFOUR' 09 + TEACHERS!

:D

kay.

gtg.

Love & as always,

AMANDA.

p.s. i wanna meet scamper! +++ triciagosingtian. :O

i love this picture. :D

taken on threefour'09 's date with mrTOH and missTEO.

won't be posting the photos here cuz got alot.

maybe after exams.

if anyone wans..just ask me..i'll give u via thumbdrive.

:D

AND IT'S OFFICIAL!

Byebye Blogger and Hello Onsugar.

:D

For now at least.

Who knows what might happen?

=X

i'mboredboredboredboredboredbored.

):

finally using the comp.

:D

so sian at home y'know.

it's studying studying studying ALL DAY LONG.

they think i'm not studying at all!

it's so darn irritating.

therefore,

i went out for a short walkwalk with sista.

had piano lesson in the afternoon.

then went home before going out soon after again.

lols.

bo liao (i know!)

tired.

eeesh.

eyebags.

dang.

dang.

dang.

dang.

dang.

dang.

god.

ilovetriciagosingtianman.

as in her works.

she's great la!

my idol.

i shall aspire to be like her.

hehe.

somehow..

she has the ability to take random shots of strangers and the photos will always turn out damn NICE.

kudos` :D

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realized that Onsugar is not bad on the whole.

EXCEPT.

for the uploading of images.

one by one ain't working for me.

especially since i'm known to spam pictures.

everytime i go out...

i take at least 100-400 ++ pictures.

sounds crazy but yeah.

that's me.

:D

oh and i took these today!

just shots of...

guess what?

a cup-cover.

condensation is a beautiful thing.

trust me.

just look at the pictures man!

pretty right?

:D

kay.

i should go concentrate on my music notes.

oh and btw.

Onsugar's cool cuz it can import all your old posts from another webbie.

WHEEEEEEEEEEE~

:D

kayyes.

Love and as always,

MANDA.